feels like were on the edge right now i wish i could say im proud im sorry that i let you down let you down all these voices in my head get loud i wish that i could shut them out im sorry that i let you down i let you down i done lost everything from all my pain and all of my hate im facing the way i lost all of you and i know i cant get you back even if i changed my brain is a mess and i been stressed and i know you been fed up holdin ya breathe i just wish you would be able to see me get my shit together but its too late and you left and i understand ya plan i would of ran to if the person i been with did what they did now i gotta live wit that shit and live without you for the rest of my life cuz thats what i get yea i wish i could take it back but i cant i just wanna clean up the mess i made but you dont want me to so instead i made my bed layin in it missin your face i dont wanna be with anybody else and i dont want you to be with anybody else i just want us to be us but i cant have what i want cuz its bad for your health and you was the person i turned to when confused and needin help and now i cant even turn to you for nothing; its like im livin hell everytime you left wit every step you always wanted me to fight for you stay i just want to beg for you to come home cuz this house aint a home without you its just a place i done got on my knees and prayed and given up addicitons to better the rest of my remains cuz what i did to you was stupid i should of never brought a gun to the table no matter the pain i was gonna marry you on october 6th; turn around and have some kids livin life that we need makin our fairy tales real while makin other couples jealous on how things suppose to be you were my safe haven; my safe place you was gonna be the person that took my last name ive never loved anyone like i love you even thru all of the poor choices i made you use to call me your favorite now i just feel like i need to be irrelevant i just want to hold you close but its feels like you want me to let you go like youve settled it and your not settling for less; and my emotions got the best of me i should of just let you be mad and say what you wanted and you would still be here with me you show me that you care about my future more then i do you are goin to be all i ever knew if i ever loose you i promise, im no king wit a crown but i gave my queen a tearra i held it down for my baby but my baby held us down harder listen, i feel we both never gave ourselves enough credit because love isnt about what you can love its what you could tolerate every second and we tolerated; i just wish we could look each other in the eyes and see both sides of that story form both views and not be blind